that awkward moment when you realize that you have daddy issues
the fury instilling instant when you realize he's fucking up your little brothers too
and how it reinforces his insincerity of the apology he made 20 years too late
here he is making those same mistakes again...

look, man, i got something to say to you
words don't mean shit and you ain't much of a wordsmith
so no weaving, construction, nor fabrication will make me believe anything you tell
because i saw no actions following up those words
i just saw my brothers become closer to the typical black male raised only by women
and you? i saw you become redundant
i saw my acknowledgment of my problems
i understood that all the damage you caused me is done & that you will not hurt me any longer
i'm grown enough to realize what's going on
so save your bullshit apologies
& stay away from me and my family; the family that you helped create but have done nothing to enhance.
if you want in, you need to stop playing victim and grow up
let go of all the dramatics because from what i hear, you're downright pathetic
accept the mistakes you've made and make moves to fix them
do what you have to do.

it's your choice:
be a mad and raise your sons
or continue living how you've been living and cut us out of your life completely...