the sky blends from black to blue to green to yellow to pink
as i chase daylight
time is slipping through my fingertips
like the answer to a question eludes a person with the correct response on the tip of her tongue
out of reach
and i find myself fast forwarding through each day
rushing to keep up
failing to catch hold of myself
and i feel like i'm losing me
as i barely function through day after day of lost sleep
exams
essays
assignments
expectations
heartaches & pain
& the constant reminder to stay happy
to live for me
the life of a teenager
the days, nights, weeks, months, years of a college student
the musings of a dreamer
who has found comfort in solitude
but somehow fears time alone with herself
time that she can't keep track of
time that allows her to backtrack
into her past
& the heartbreak she can't seem to rid herself of
she wades through the murky lakes of her tears
and onto the dry shores of her happiness...
but then time recaptures her
and alerts her to the present
& the future that the next second will bring...
she looks out of her window
& sees that the sky blends no more
it has faded completely black
& the daylight she hoped to somehow get back
is gone...
forever.