riding towards my past
a time i don't want to forget
but still a time i'm not trying too hard to remember
you've invaded my present with your presence
and the decision of you being allowed into my future
goes around and around in my mind's eye.

i'm riding towards my past
&nd scenario after scenario plays over and over in my head
wondering how we will meet
how will i greet you?
fighting back tears
or with this indifference i've developed towards you
the two parts of me battle in my psyche
the part that loves you but yearns to hate you
the part that just can't bring itself to care.

riding towards my past
i take note of all the changes i've undergone in these past few months
not just mentally but physically as well
i've grown, new weight burdens me
both in both aspects
&nd i question if you've still stayed the same

riding towards my past
you've invaded my present
&nd you're working your way into my future...