This feeling indescribable
This pain inexplicable
It isn't obvious
Far from prominent
It just resurfaces occasionally when I find myself in some other man's arms
When I find myself in arms that aren't yours
And wonder what it would've been like
Had we had that kind of relationship
But, today, I write no more love poems for you
And in all reality I never wrote of a beautiful love
I only recorded the immense amount of tears I've cried.
But, today, I shed no more tears because of you
I refuse to allow you that power over me anymore
Power you shouldn't have be in possession of in the first place.

I've come to the realization
That in love with you I am no longer
Love shouldn't be what I dealt with
It shouldn't smother me
It shouldn't make me feel inadequate
And it should be reciprocated
Today, I am breaking out of love's prison
I've been freed of this love's suffocating hold
And Tiff said, "What is love if it is not loving?"
No longer am I in love with you
But forever will I love you
Regardless of the circumstances.
But no more shall I record this pain
No more shall I drown myself in mine own cries for help
No more
No more
Give me back the happiness I've lost
Give it back
Because even in my misery
The only company I yearned for was yours
And when we let go of this
I ask myself what did we fight so hard for if I wasn't good enough?
I ask myself why we're still fighting
What keeps me fighting for you
Fighting to keep you in my life
When it seems as if you're pushing me away as hard as you can.
And it hurts but the tears won't come
That part of my life is over
You've made it to my future
There's a reason you're here
There's a reason that I've been through what I've been through with you
And I'm moving forward
No regrets
No looking back
No wishing that things were different
Because wishes alter nothing
You will not make me bitter
You will not make me believe that the damage I've sustained is irreparable
You will not lead me to believe that because you were my first, you will be my last
I will love again
And I will hold you to your word:
"If I'll be remembered for leaving ur side it will be as a result of my untimely demise. I'm not gonna be some reawakened memory vaguely forgotten whilst being slightly remembered."
Remember that?
Remember this:
Forever will I love you
Forever will I be your friend
But to be in love with you?
Never again.