...envelops me
overtakes me
overwhelmes me
as i experience this...
this withdrawal.
you're not here.
and it feels [wrong].
makes me restless
disallows sleep to find me.
i'm uncomfortable
i find comfort
nowhere but in the warmth of you...
the warmth of your eyes
your arms
your touch
the warmth i've felt
nowhere else
but in your presence...

i've been awarded
a warped present
a twisted gift
in you.
nobody, but i, want you in my life.
nobody knows the intensity is wrapped in secrecy.
cloaked in your[darkness]
covered in my [light]
we are two completely different extremities...

but then i get confused
in this hurt that consumes
and contributes to
my sadness
and i become incoherent...
as it takes over me:
mind &nd body...
why does he do this to me?
why can he do this to me?
why doesn't it hurt him
like it hurts me?

or does it?
and he refuses to show me...
what will we be?
what will time bring?...
<3