i've filled my quota
of self-inflicted pain
and self doubt.
i'm tired of trying to
interpret your words
and figure your actions out. i'm done with hoping
that you'll be something akin
to what i want you to be
i've finally accepted the fact
that you're definitely not the one for me.

can u see that i've let go?
i yearn for you no more.
i've given up on you being my heart's cure.
i've had enough of empty promises you made constantly
i'm letting go.
peace greets me.

&nd this is serenity.


i've been enchanted in my delusions
wrapped in a perfect net
constructed in a perfect world
where expectations are always met
and hearts are never broken.

but i'm disenchanted
and none too soon.
i'll take the blame for this
because it was i who led myslef to believe
that you were different.
you...of all people
to change my life,
i chose you.

i ignored warnings
of you're too smart for that
warning given by others
as well as myself.

you.
you're not good for my sanity
in the least.
and they say that what hurts the most
is letting go,
but what can hurt more than this?

what can hurt more than
realizing your stupidity
because you believed all of his bullshit.

letting go should be
cleansing
relieving
anything but hard.

i think imma try it
but i have so much to get off my chest.
i refuse to be sucked back in.

he aggravates me with his complexities
but the truth is,
he isn't complex in the lest.
i've created these "complexities"
because, on a real,
he's as simple as they come:
say anything
to get her naked
in you bed
legs spread...
hmph. and i'm stupid cuz i fell for it.
oh, so easily.
i thought he was whispering
truth and change
in my ear.
fed me with false hopes
that kept me sated for, let's see,
about 2 weeks.
still too long and i'm still dumb
but aren't we all...

i'll be less accepting of the shit
he whispers in mye ear
because its been too long
and i'm altogether tired of feeling like this.
i do believe that he has exhausted all of the hope
i have in me...

but i'll take the blame
because its only my fault that
i've fallen so far into his trap...