&иd ι ѕuяяеиdәЯ...

i surrender
i refuse to keep trying
i've succumbed to my injuries
but i refuse to let the
tears leave
i give up
but i refuse to acknowledge defeat.
so tired of being used
and thinking that maybe
this will be something new
even though i know in the back of my mind
that it's the exact same as last time...
and the time before that...

I GIVE UP!
i've exhausted my attempts at these things
that i have no other words for...

i give up...
i'm tired of feeling like this
and i'm tired of missing someone
i KNOW i'll never have


tired of things that'll never happen

so i'll try to stop trying

and i'll try not to care...




and i surrender...